Romantic

17 years ago, his wife who married to him for 33 years passed away due to sudden heart attack disease and left him.

70 years old man planted 6000 rubber trees, into the huge heart shape that pointed to the hometown of his beloved wife. This secret is kept for years until discovered by someone from hot air balloon.

To me, this is the most romantic action that carries out from love.

Romantic is not necessarily from money and materialistic stuff, is from time x effort.

Catch me oh Lord

The catch me event is over, thank God for the talented friends that I have. Singing, dancing, sharing, organizing & strategizing. Basically in the full spectrum of talents that I meet with.

I feel even harder to totally out from teenZ after this event, I'm not a part of them anymore... Gelang Patah is still a new environment for me after the months, is not a big sacrifice but yet a big decision to totally focusing alone.

My dear God, I know you're with me. So, speak to me and show me visions...

Miri Mission, 28 June - 5 July 2012

一个星期前的今天，我在宣教的禾场。7人行，好紧张也好兴奋。

正在整理思绪的同时，我告诉自己：“嗯！我决定继续为自己这次的旅程写下足迹。”

《待续》。。。

8天7夜，4天的走走飞飞和晕晕；海陆空交通工具都尝试了。4天连续不断的惊喜和相处，真的拉近大家的距离。

突破

好大好大的突破，从自己的小圈子冲了出来。 见证分享，平时没有机会讲的见证透明的说了出来。可见大家的过去都让彼此有所认识，有谁没有过去啊... 不过上帝真的很给我机会 “erm erm erm x 120”，虽然我的国语很有限；但无限的上帝让我看见祂的超级恩典。

谦卑

上帝让我学习到组长队友的谦卑。要谦卑，其实非常容易；只是没有操练。不是难，而且上帝总有祂的办法。只有把内心的自己放在上帝的面前，柔和谦卑真的可以让大家都很不一样。放下自己对他的成见和看法，其实可以看见对方的好。

原来，就是这样的滋味。

追求

上帝真的很爱很爱那里的人，看见他们对上帝的渴慕和领受上帝祝福。我愣了，这也再次提醒我对上帝的感觉。追求的感觉，就是在患难中也要追求祂。祂的存在并不是那一个时刻，而是一直的存在。

怜悯

这一次，我为他们哭了。哭呀哭呀哭呀，眼泪就这样的流了。从心里的哭泣，到祷告的哭泣。上帝，你一定要帮助他们。让他们有机会种植，让小孩有机会接受最高等的教育。改善他们的生活，改变他们的环境。就因为他们是上帝的创造，他们是上帝的宝贝。让政府帮助他们的时候不是看条件，而是看到上帝你的Penan族群的需要！

惊喜1就在抵达的第一天开始，大家准备上场了。没有时间预备那么多，但是上帝所给我们的真的是我们能所承受的。见证分享，噼哩啪啦噼里啪啦就这样说了。对我而言，这是第一个的大释放。这生命的见证，让我看见上帝赐给我的恩典。很多时候没有勇气分享，更别说是最好朋友所听过的。但是，也由于自己没有时间准备。谢谢上帝让我没有时间准备，就拿了《精兵》训练营所讲的原稿。大大的突破啊啊啊啊~！

虽然小朋友都相信耶稣，但我们决定在一次帮助他们肯定自己的救恩。耶稣不止住在天上，也住在我们的心里。这个道理，是我们一直在强调的。:)

在开始启程前，我只能说：“那时的我们，真的很陌生很陌生。”但是不管了，既然大家一起来了就这样大家一起去了。

到了第二地方，看见了这个昆虫。恐怖极了..... 没看过吧？嘿嘿... 我相信还有跟多奇怪的昆虫，如果这只东西飞向我，我会跟他拼了。我在想，如果我有机会在这地区长期的服事。我最大的挑战，不是胜不过寂寞；而是胜不过这些昆虫。

这群小朋友，前后走来至少5次向我拿糖果。他们住的地方好偏僻，好远。能够和他们谈话一起折小船，好开心。这里，是上帝给我们机会开始让大家彼此更加的认识。

嗯... 是谁拍的照片？无论如何，这应该是我最自然最喜欢照片中的自己吧。

上帝的另一个神迹！我们六个人 vs 220个小朋友！看见他们脸上的笑容，他们的天真让我继续的走下去。耶稣说：“让小孩到我这里来，不要禁止小孩到我这里来。”也就这样，保持我对小孩的热忱。大风吹~~~ 咻咻咻！

Ps.Wilson的一家，好快乐的家庭。谢谢他们的招待和收留，不然团队们就要睡在屋子底下了。很惊讶，Ps.Wilson和我分享他接下来的变化。他和家人将会离开这里，他们的教会将派他们一家进入更偏远的地方。没有交通工具，需要走两天的路才能到达的地方。这么偏远，我在想，如果没有河流在那个部落会怎么办？我决定了，有机会的话一定要去那个走路走两天的地方再为上帝闯一闯！

他们捕鱼的专业，让我想起了耶稣说的一句话，“来跟从我，我要叫你们的人如得鱼一样。”这张照片，是我最喜欢的照片。《刹那间的美丽，是可以捕捉下来的。》

我们的老大！小孩的万人迷！:)

我们水里的英雄们，没有他们；没有鱼。

这个桶制手推车，他们给小孩的玩具。

第六天，大家越来越有默契了。感谢主，没有任何的问题。也就在这几天的相处，上帝让我们看到大家一级棒的关怀和分享的功力。小的从5个人的身上学了好多好多，尤其是那个穿灰色衣服的组长。而这一个见证，我会永远的记得。

忘了大家在说什么，只想到快点抓住拍下大家自然表情的照片。虽然自己不再里面，但是可以拍到大家笑得这么自然的照片。我就这么高兴了一整天。:)

最后一张美景，就在上飞机的那一刻。彩虹，让我想起上帝与挪亚所立的约。从那一刻起，我很相信上帝的美好安排。哇，看到这道彩虹超级兴奋的。第一，不是常常有机会可以看到彩虹；第二，大家都可以在宣教中一起看到彩虹的机会渺茫。来结束这次的宣教，我只能说：“上帝让好多好多的神迹奇事发生！个人的生命，和与Penan族群分享的祝福。” :)

只能说这一次的宣教和我曾经去过的宣教真的很不一样，突破；谦卑；追求；怜悯都经历了。除了这些，让我学到和团队服事的重要性。当一个人想要放弃的时候，知道大家都一起在做的时候；让我学会“坚持”的果效。服事缺少了彼此的配搭，就少了应该归给上帝的荣耀。也让我学到，不要把个人的问题带进宣教的职场；而是要把上帝的祝福和认识福音的机会参与在宣教的道路。

这是继好久以前泰国宣教的点滴后，再一次写下所走过的足迹。如果给我多一次的机会，我还是会参加和这5个一级棒的朋友去多一次宣教。虽然很大的可能大家以后都没机会一起服事和联络的机会，但是我很感谢上帝给我机会和大家有机会一起同工。

《待续》........

决定

接到了一通电话
好快乐好快乐
教会，两个月后就好了

这通电话
也意味着做决定的时间越来越短了

我需要装备自己
我需要交代
我需要离开

这种莫名的压力
我想要有个方向和肯定

是这个星期六吗？

NEW LAYOUT

It has been ages since I come back to here & didn't know the layout has changed so much.

Anyway, I like it. It looks like you're at work or something, nobody knows you're blogging at this hour. hehe.

Life is very busy & I never stop to readjust & adapt into every situation.

Work
Experienced a lot. Tears; happiness & sadness; passion; mixed feelings; laziness & intelligence. Things happened for me to learn, & how perseverance can be learned through everything that happened out of sudden. :)

Serving
It has a big change to impact my life since I come back from Kampar in last year Aug. From tertiary student to a working adult; from TEENz to Children. I couldn't say all these has affected to who shall I mix with and who shall I talk to, but it really makes me to think a lot a lot. It has come to a point that I did suspect my own ability & capability, therefore I've decided to stop to work out something & keep on doing what I'm doing. After all, I wish I can settle down at soonest the possible.

Heavily involving in Children Ministry recently, I become to love the children a lot. They smile at me & talk to me, I will feel happy. Sometimes you might not understand why are the children behave to be naughty & hard to educate, but again bible says LOVE covers all sins. I wish to teach my own children in the future. :)

Relationship
Busy-ness has set us apart, I slowly lost contact with my secondary best friends & church friends. Most of the time of being alone & with God. I eat with my colleagues on weekdays & eat alone on weekends, enjoy seeing sunsets on weekends and taking the photos when I'm on the way back from church & work in the Sunday evening.

Life is good with a stable job & income; a ministry & a fellowship that make you grow mentally & spiritually; after this two phases of life, probably is time to look for someone to love? I don't know.


:)

WORK

工作

其实我怕这种压力

我知道我要胜过。

PERFECT MATCH?

转呀转

两个人在一起
是否应该要门当户对
 一样的家庭背景

还是
像美女与野兽的区别

RENEW MY STRENGTH

忙碌是一种幸福，奔波是一种快乐？

上帝

再一次让祂的话浮现

向对的祂支取力量

向下扎根 往上结果

每一天都是新的一天

21

21岁

其实我还有很多东西没有完成

我的学业

我的工作

我的人际关系

我的家庭

我的脾气

我的态度

我的进度

似乎是零

其实我没有什么愿望

我只想要

爸爸妈妈身体健康

家人回到上帝面前

蒙恩

买自己的房子

可以结婚生孩子教育他们使他们走上帝的路

把朋友都寄回来当生日礼物

自己喜欢的朋友能够站在面前说：生日快乐

《句号》

FEELINGS

I used to use pictures to speak up for my feelings and thoughts.

Here it goes.....

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How much do you agree with this?


I think it's partially correct, but still there is still something to add-on to magnify the "handsome" in him:-


1. He should be willing to put your relationship before all others:

Genesis 2:24
For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to (to cling, stick, stay close, cleave, keep close, stick to, stick with, follow closely, join to, overtake, catch) his wife, and they will become one flesh.

2. He should be a good leader:

Ephesians 5:23
For the husband is the head (metaphor, anything supreme, chief, prominent of persons, master lord: of a husband in relation to his wife of Christ: the Lord of the husband and of the Church of things: the corner stone) of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior.

3. He should love you as much as he loves himself and be willing to give himself for you:

Ephesians 5

25 Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her 26 to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, 27 and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. 28 In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. 29 After all, no one ever hated his own body, but he feeds and cares for it, just as Christ does the church. Next: Characteristics of a Christian Wife

BEST FRIEND

‎"Best Friend"

Do you remember when I said I'd always be there.
Ever since we were ten, baby.
When we were out on the playground playing pretend.
Didn't know it back then.

Now I realize you were the only one
It's never too late to show it.
Grow old together,
Have feelings we had before
Back when we were so innocent

[Chorus:]
I pray for all your love
Girl our love is so unreal
I just wanna reach and touch you, squeeze you, somebody pinch me
This is something like a movie
And I dont know how it ends girl
But I fell in love with my Best Friend

Through all the dudes that came by
And all the nights that you'd cry.
Girl I was there right by your side.
How could I tell you I loved you
When you were so happy
With some other guy?

Now I realize you were the only one
It's never too late to show it.
Grow old together,
Have feelings we had before
When we were so innocent.

[Chorus]

I know it sounds crazy
That you'd be my baby.
Girl you mean that much to me.

And nothing compares when
We're lighter than air and
We don't wanna come back down.

And I don't wanna ruin what we have
Love is so unpredictable.

But it's the risk that I'm taking, hoping, praying
You'd fall in love with your best friend

[Chorus x2]

I remember when I said I'd always be there
Ever since we were ten baby.

PHOTO BLOG

Hoping for a nice dinner at a cozy environment, looking at the sunset and then stary stary night.

Okay, time for leave the office and dream after work, I'm thinking of looking for a companion. Dinner and tea...

Thank God for the day, I managed to send out sufficient resumes. Praying that things will turn out smoothly in His righteous path.

Amen.

SLOW

我太快了，该学习慢下来。看看四周美丽的风景。

自信

帮助我当一个有自信的人。

A Workaholic

Okay, left-handed lady is dead, I forgot the password. It has become a history, all the blog posts will remain forever.

So, I'm here. A new blog with new contents, a new identity and a new phase of life.

Welcome to working life!